When I began this project, the idea was that I would create a series of mandalas depicting what the inside of my heart looked like, and the commitment was that I would not stop until I had completed 100 of them. I agreed with myself that I would "tell" the truth, and that I would finish every picture I started, even the ones that looked "stupid" or "inept" or just downright "terrible".

My sister was the catalyst that got this project started. She was working on illustrations for a book she had written and was very excited and enthusiastic about art as a spiritual practice, and a way to connect with God. I, on the other hand, was pretty sure that there would never be a spiritual practice that would ever work for me, and that my life was pretty much a pointless exercise in futility.

At the time, I was working nights at a job that I felt was killing me mentally and emotionally, spending long hours deep in the night reading true crime novels, flipping through magazines, playing computer games, and feeling depressed....

... I am so sorry, especially since you are actually here, on this forgotten little blog actually reading this post !! But I have a new website, shirleytwofeathers.com, and I have a new little Middle of the Night Art website which I am working to get done. This post has been moved over there, you can find it here: What Was I Thinking?