Drawing Seven:



Notes -
Well, i made another picture and i really like this one.
after i finished it i felt ... satiated ... and ... well... relaxed and good
it was so much fun to draw
and color

i am calling it
Whoa Nellie! That might hurt!

and there does seem to be a definite theme emerging
and recurring images
and i do think there is a story line
the images in my head have relaxed a bit now
i am not sure just what i will do next
but i am getting a small kernel of an idea
i just don't want to get stuck in the "story" idea
and so i am studiously avoiding thinking about what i might draw tonight

maybe i will take a shower
and do some yoga
... uh did i actually say that???...
and them i might even meditate

whoa nellie! that might hurt?

anyway i am just dying to get your reaction to this one
its burning a hole in my scanner
i love you
and i am going to go do something nice with my body
while i still feel like it

Drawing Five:



Notes -
well
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

i made some more pictures, and i am not too impressed with them. maybe i like this one ok...

the picture came to me days ago, and was astonishingly hard to draw and even harder to finish... partly because i flat out did not know how to draw what it was i was seeing in my mind, and partly because once drawn and colored it didn't look right and i had a very hard time figuring out just what was needed for it to feel satisfyingly complete

but...

i guess i thought they would blow me away, or that i would be impressed with them, or that i would be in awe - like i was with drawing #2 - or something.... but... i feel a sort of let down, deflatedness

anyway but i went ahead with them anyway, even when i saw that they were not taking shape in a way that really made me feel good about the words "artist" and "shirley" in the same sentence together. in fact, i began to feel somewhat demented as i was drawing them. demented and, yes, brave...

brave because i went ahead and finished them anyway, brave because i claim them anyway, brave because i did not try to fancy them up, or fix them up, or jack with the integrity of the idea in an attempt to make myself like them

one problem has become my dirth of colors. i need more colors. definitely need a larger variety. one strikingly absent color is gray... miss that gray... silver too... miss that one ...

and so another way i know i am brave is that i claimed them, named them, signed them, scanned them, and am now going to attach them to this email and i am going to send them. i wonder what you will see in them....